Saturday, January 14

This Road

On Tuesday, I woke up with lower tummy pains once again. We went to the doctor's office and were told the following:
An ultrasound showed there is fluid built up on my right kidney, and to make it worse, sweet MG is laying in a way that's putting pressure on the tube that drains my kindey into my bladder.
My cervix has started to thin. The minimum is 3 cm thick, mine was 2.4 cm. Thus, I'm on bedrest and taking meds every 4 hours to prevent any more contractions. Our new goal is to make it to at least 34 weeks gestation, which is March 1st. We are praying that my cervix will not continue to thin and that we can at least make it another 7 weeks. Bob and I keep joking that we will make it past our due date and end up being induced.

On Wednesday, the doctor's office called and said that I did not pass my glucose test. We are scheduled to retake it again on Monday morning before we see our regular doctor. We also learned that the urologist would not see me since I'm pregnant and now high-risk. We are now scheduled to see specialist who deals with high-risk pregnancy complications on Wednesday, Jan. 18th.

On Friday, the doctor's office called again and said that there was still a moderate amount of blood in my urine. They placed me on more medication to try and deal with that issue until we can figure out what the game plan will be on Wednesday.

Today (Saturday) my husband cut his finger pretty badly and is at this moment in the ER waiting to get stitches/treatment. Please say a prayer for him.

While looking through scriptures and asking the big 'WHY' question, I keep thinking about this song by one of my favorite Christian artists, Ginny Owens...

This Road
A million miles away from anything familiar
A thousand places I would rather be
So I choke back the tears and try to find the bright side
Though I find it hard to see beyond my suffering
In my heart I know Your plan is so much bigger
But this small part is all that I can see
And I believe you haven't left me here to wander
Still I can't help but ponder where You're leading me

Chorus:
And I ask why this road
Why this way and this load
Tell me how far I must go
'Til I see
'Til I know why this road

A million miles away from anythig familliar
What was it like to be so far from home
And though You came in love the world misunderstood You
There must have been some days when You felt so alone
But You endured 'cause there was joy before You
Joy that came because You sacrificed
Since You gave yourself just to spend forever with me
Surely I can trust You'll lead me through my darkest times

When I ask why this road
Why this way and this load
Tell me how far must I go
'Til I see
'Til I know why this road

From here I can not see why You'd choose this path for me
But I don't have to understand to believe that You know why

You know why this road
Why this way and this load
You know how far I must go
'Til I see
'Til I know why this road

This is not how things were supposed to be. This is not the road we were on just two weeks ago. This is not the load we wanted to carry or the path we wanted to travel. We just keep telling each other that although our situation has changed, our God has not.

We want to say a big thank you to everyone who has called, came by to visit, brought us food, and most importantly to those who have been praying. Right now we are specifically praying that I will pass this second glucose test. With everything else going on, gestational diabetes is the absolute last thing we want to deal with. Please continue to lift us up!

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